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Can I have a day without tears?
Can I ? Can I ?

A place for myself

All this time, I was busy taking other's pictures.But this time is for myself. Even other photographers said that.

They said: "Sera ohhh Sera, kau ni asyik amek gamba orang lain jer. Kenapa kau tak amek gamba sendiri? Kan lagi bagus ?"

I replied: "This is my hobby. I suka amek gamba orang lain sebab kenangan macamtu susah nak cari tau. I memang suka amek gamba. Kecuali gambar I sendiri la. My life wouldn't complete without photography.

They replied me: Ohh ok, Sera. Kitorang tau you bukan jenis yang syok sendiri and your artwork. Kami kagum Sera. Walaupun you ni "budak kecik", tapi you pnya artwork boleh kalahkan "budak besar" ok?

Sera: oh..haha. mana ade.I ni biasa je la =)

Cupcakes

I just came back. I went shopping with my brother to buy some stuffs.

Same thing happened again. Some guys were following me..Dei, seriously I don't like it.

But, there's a guy he's the most obvious. I can see that he's following me obviously.Even my brother and the workers there noticed it. But, seriously that guy looks like Ashraf Muslim.. OMG!

But, who cares??? He keep on following me like he's my bodyguard. Hei! Even bodyguard never did something obvious like that ok?

I'M SOOOO LUCKY.

I asked my brother to pay all the stuffs at the payment counter and I quickly ran to upstairs..

Fuhhhh...lega gilaaaa. Now, his shadow is gone.gone...Now, i'm free! No one, following me! Yayay.

BUT, a few minutes after that. It happened again. Argh! Don't want to write about it anymore. It just make my bloggey looks messy.

I bought 2 pieces of Kertas Mahjung, 1 Staedtler 8B pencil for my sketch and 1 Artline glue stick.

I saw Ajis and Cikgu Shuhaimie there. I buat derk jer. Segan nak tegur. haha =) Ajis was just like looking at me and i know what's in his mind. " Aik? macam kenal je budak tu, tapi sape ek ?" and " Oh, Nisa rupanya, patutlah nmpak mcm kenal je." teehee. Dei, I CAN READ HIS MIND DEI.

Yeah, almost forgot to mention that, Sera also bought some eggs, milk, butter....

I'm baking CUPCAKES tomorrow! huhu... I wish that my cupcake is the best cupcake I've ever ate. Hooray. Wish me luck, yeah! hehe...

If possible, maybe Iqmal is coming tomorrow. We have to discuss about our presentation. We were given less than a week to prepare it. So, better we do it as soon as possible.

CUPCAKES for you Iqmal! haha... just if you come to my house la. lol

Ggrrr....

Hurh..boringlah cuti kali ni..
So, Sera buka Facebook, chat dengan kawan- kawan kat KRB.
Atikah Nordin, Ariff Hafizi, Azlan Zawawi, and Abang Amir...
Thanks all kerana sudi temankan Sera..
Kalau takde korang, memang boring gila lah...

Setakat ni jelah untuk post kali ini, ade hal sikit. Kena out. Ok, bbye!!

xoxo,
SeraNisa

Johnny, Zaroue, Sera....

When I kiss you..Mmuah!! Then I push you purposely..Johnny saw that, he laughed and said in his heart: " Seerve u rite!! dis is wat u get for stealing my GF.." lol. :p
Haha, my Zaroue wrote this on his wall. I'm shocked, really shocked! I thought he was kidding about that, Zaroue..But, he really proved it..

Goood job, my Zaroue !!! And thanks for being my besties...

Mabuhay, Fitri !

Today, 17.04.10 ( Saturday) is my friend's birthday...Sweet 19!! teehee...

His name is Muhammad Fitri bin Basri. He's my schoolmate. Form 6. Last year.

I'm very happy to have a friend like him.. I still remember the past :) The first time we met at school.
We were chatting till evening.. great topics, ya.
He is very friendly, funny, and yet quite 'crazy' ...It's ok, because me too, crazy...
He's now in MIAT, Kuala Lumpur.. Really miss him. We've lost contact..

Last but not least, Happy Birthday, Fit!!! Long live...Mabuhay!! (It means 'panjang umur' in Filipine language)
U will always in my mind..

I Have a Cousin
Her name is Wan Maisara Amirah bt Wan Abdul Aziz.I'm telling you this because she plays a big role in my life .

But on 9.15 p.m , 19th October 2008 , she passed away . I've known when I visited her , it'll be the last time I see her smile . She can talk, but unlike usual. She was grasping for air , all she could do was give a faint smile at me , and waved . Waved at me , for the last time .

She was studying Architecture in RMIT in Melbourne . She was a bright student . A caring sister , and an inspirational cousin .She was a talented photographer . Her artwork impressed me..She is my inspiration . Really ...

But on April 2008 , I heard from my aunt that she was diagnosed with Advanced Lung Cancer.I thought she was joking with me about Kak Sara... but, it's true..It just hard for me to accept it...

'She's a fighter, a strong fighter who never give up... ' I thought ..

Her cancer was too vigorous that it had reached up till stage 3B when detected . 3B ... 3B ...

This always in my mind: "Why does bad things happen to good people ? I was questioning a lot . I was angry . What had she done to deserve this .. ? Why .. ?

She came back to Malaysia and spent her remaining time here . Her family decided to give alternative medicine , and it seemed okay for a few weeks . I visited her just twice before she left us. And i knew, that will be the last time i see her smile.

There's one thing about her that really impressed me.She is really a fighter . I never heard her complaining even once . Her high spirits and usual giggle can fool others , but her eyes can't fool me . I can see that she is suffering..How strong she could be , while others around her were being so weak and vulnerable . I respected her .

By August , she had lost a lot of weight . She measured half her usual weight . I can see her , suffering . But still , as her usual self , was being happy as usual.
When she started on chemo , she wrote this on her blog ;

'Im not a delicate little flower, I'm a Superwoman'
I will always remember that.

Chemo kills cells . Any cell . Good and bad .

"Sakit pun sakit lah, I want to be healthy again!" she wrote this in her blog. She decided to go on with chemo even with her current condition , when she couldnt even hold the camera, when she could barely breathe, when she had a hard time walking ... . She had no energy left ,with a very high and hopeful and high spirit, she decided to go through her chemo She was still fighting her hardest to beat this .

After receiving the news of she passing away, my mood changed, badly. I was crying a lot because i lost someone really important in my life.


I will always remember you Kak Sara , for being huge part of my life .
And now I understand more , He loves you Sara . He choosed you to be with Him..

Yes .. I had a cousin ..


Al-Fatihah .