I Have a Cousin
Her name is Wan Maisara Amirah bt Wan Abdul Aziz.I'm telling you this because she plays a big role in my life .
But on 9.15 p.m , 19th October 2008 , she passed away . I've known when I visited her , it'll be the last time I see her smile . She can talk, but unlike usual. She was grasping for air , all she could do was give a faint smile at me , and waved . Waved at me , for the last time .
She was studying Architecture in RMIT in Melbourne . She was a bright student . A caring sister , and an inspirational cousin .She was a talented photographer . Her artwork impressed me..She is my inspiration . Really ...
But on April 2008 , I heard from my aunt that she was diagnosed with Advanced Lung Cancer.I thought she was joking with me about Kak Sara... but, it's true..It just hard for me to accept it...
'She's a fighter, a strong fighter who never give up... ' I thought ..
Her cancer was too vigorous that it had reached up till stage 3B when detected . 3B ... 3B ...
This always in my mind: "Why does bad things happen to good people ? I was questioning a lot . I was angry . What had she done to deserve this .. ? Why .. ?
She came back to Malaysia and spent her remaining time here . Her family decided to give alternative medicine , and it seemed okay for a few weeks . I visited her just twice before she left us. And i knew, that will be the last time i see her smile.
There's one thing about her that really impressed me.She is really a fighter . I never heard her complaining even once . Her high spirits and usual giggle can fool others , but her eyes can't fool me . I can see that she is suffering..How strong she could be , while others around her were being so weak and vulnerable . I respected her .
By August , she had lost a lot of weight . She measured half her usual weight . I can see her , suffering . But still , as her usual self , was being happy as usual.
When she started on chemo , she wrote this on her blog ;
'Im not a delicate little flower, I'm a Superwoman'
I will always remember that.
Chemo kills cells . Any cell . Good and bad .
"Sakit pun sakit lah, I want to be healthy again!" she wrote this in her blog. She decided to go on with chemo even with her current condition , when she couldnt even hold the camera, when she could barely breathe, when she had a hard time walking ... . She had no energy left ,with a very high and hopeful and high spirit, she decided to go through her chemo She was still fighting her hardest to beat this .
After receiving the news of she passing away, my mood changed, badly. I was crying a lot because i lost someone really important in my life.
I will always remember you Kak Sara , for being huge part of my life .
And now I understand more , He loves you Sara . He choosed you to be with Him..
Yes .. I had a cousin ..
Al-Fatihah .
When I kiss you..Mmuah!! Then I push you purposely..Johnny saw that, he laughed and said in his heart: " Seerve u rite!! dis is wat u get for stealing my GF.." lol. :p
